I've had some terrible luck this last week or so with my knitting. It has largely been to do with the Socktopus Sock Club's Fiori di Zucca socks - or in my case, sock - as while I love the yarn and the pattern and the process of knitting such fine but actually simple lace, I've cocked it up too many times now.
Firstly, I cast on at least three times. This is normal for me. But I remember the at one point I made a mistake in the first chart and lost a stitch permanently; no matter how carefully I tinked back - and I tinked, not ripped - I could not regain that missing stitch.
But I persevered, and soon I was working down the leg and making beautiful lacy blossoms. I started to worry a little that the medium size would not accommodate my 16" calves, but they sort of did, which made me feel a little better. I'd considered making the large size leg but the medium foot, but had no idea if it would work, and if I was clever enough to adjust it.
Then came the heel chart, which took a little thinking but I eventually got the idea. Again, I tinked back this chart at least three times before I found myself totally stuck. Something was wrong but I counted up perfectly.
And then I remembered there was an errata. So I'd been knitting the wrong chart all that time. So I tinked back again, started the corrected chart, and it was fine, until I lost a stitch. And like before, no matter how carefully I tinked back, the stitch could not be regained.
I cried, and pouted, and felt very disappointed in myself, but I pulled my needles out, got my ballwinder, and wound the lot back into a ball before I could further exhaust the yarn.
What upset me was not that I completely cocked the sock, but the fact that now I had fallen further behind in finishing the sock club socks. I've so far only completed two pairs out of five - though I did cast on the Hopscotch socks for August and they're still on the needles - and I certainly won't be able to complete all six before the end of the year, which means I won't earn all my badges.
But then, I thought, they're badges. There's a really cool idea and having seen them, they look really cool, too, but I don't know if they're worth this much aggravation. I don't know if they're worth taking to heart people's comments about how they've zoomed along and caught up and are well on their way to earning badges. I had to remember that I knit because I enjoy it, not for some thrill of some race to glory.
I mean, if I wanted that, I'd take up Formula One.
So I've decided that I will knit up these beautiful socks someday, but not today, not while I still think they don't like me. And maybe I'll try and earn badges during next year's sock club, but for now I am going to enjoy my knitting. Life is too short for competing in knitting.
Having made that decision, I figured I may as well start on one of the two Christmas presents I need to make.

This is the faint beginnings of the world-renowned Clapotis, by Kate Gilbert. I'm making it for Nick's paternal grandmother, who we call Nana. Nana is, if I remember correctly, 83, and really doesn't seem to think she is. She wears bright colours, is very cheerful, walks everywhere and still drives herself, and as I like to tell people, she's still all original parts. So I think she would like a lovely bright and rich-coloured shawl-scarf for Christmas.
And this is for me:

We were looking through some of the colours of Dream in Color Classy recently and I fell in love with one colour which I thought would make a lovely pullover for myself. But after some consultation, we came to the conclusion that while the pattern would look great on me, the colour I chose would look a little sad. So we threw some colours around and arrived at this one:

This is an odd dyelot of Deep Seaflower. Yeah, I know. Crazy, huh?
I'm not normally a blue person, as a lot of blues make my skin look sallow, but this jewel-toned blue somehow pulls out the warmer tones of my skin, and it's unlikely that this odd dyelot would come around again - for Dream in Color enthusiasts, it's like Blue Lagoon, only less green, rather than like Deep Seaflower itself, which tends to be deeper and more purpley - so I went for it.
I've been doing the usual reading around - for instance, I'm going to do a knitted hem to make it look neater; I'm not a fan of the rolled edges on the bottom edge and sleeves - and I'm hoping to cast on once I finish the Clapotis.
Knitting should be about enjoying myself, and dammit, that's just what I'm going to do. Oh, and the sudden turn in the weather helps with such decisions, too.